when will it ever end help me

a tub full of blood. . .
every thing remains the same
me next to a knife
my arm covered in blood
my father

 beating me. . .
leaving me alone. . .
covered in bruises

 hurt. . .

why is he doing this
why is he hurting me
what did i do wrong
i just wanted to let my anger out
 somehow. . .
some way. . .

 but every thing has gotten worse. . .
ever since he left me
crying my eyes out. . .
on the side of the rode
 
 he used me
and im being punished for it
im screaming in pain

when will it end
someone please help
i-i dont think i can handle this any more

 theres only two chices left

 kill me. . . .

   or burry me 6ft deep alive.