help.

after cries for help,
that dont even matter anymore.
after 5/6 years of hell itself,
i return to the race of life.
i turn my back on all good.

im unbreakable.
on top of the world.

this has been a looong dance with the devil. and everyday
after every hit, i say a silent promise.
''never again.. this is the last time, im not gonna do this to myself anymore... ''

..... then the high goes away. and im left with nothing all
over again.. the only thing there is the devil.
so i jump back to his side..

i dont need the curse i have brought on myself i dont even want this life anymore..

why cant i just set it down and walk away and act like everything
is fine... am i too far gone? can i not see why its soo wrong??

i guess not.


im afraid of hell. thats a lie; if i was
so afraid why would i so willingly give myself,
my life, my everything to the devil??

there are demons everywhere. the voice of god is almost gone,
forever.. im slipping into the darkness and just fading away into nothing..

i dont want this anymore, i want MY life back.
but then i forget about it, and take another hit..

someone save me from myself...