restrained

bound
gaged
thrown in a padded room.
im so lost in my pain,
all i can do is open my veins.
the restraint takes place.
one person grabbing earch arm.
working my way around the calming down room.
fighting to get free.
feeling suffocated.
an hour later the nurse comes in,
tells me i must go to the er.
i dont want to go.
and again the restraint begins
my wounds bleed.
they escourt me to the car
and hold me down for the entire drive.
they sedate me to stitch up my arms.
when i come to in the morning ,
the whole thing begins again.