Relapse

Welcome back sobriety,
constant hell of insecurity.

Drenched in sweat, reeking
of envy and desperation
shaking in my shoes
nervously unsure.

Sleepless nights pursue,
with memories of you
amidst fingers and lips
amongst others but me.

The cruel mistress
of poisoned perception
now abandoning
the eyes of red.

Enter- reality,
the world unseen,
through saner eyes
sight will see.

The flowers and the bees,
the birds and the trees,
the tides and the breeze,
that pleasantly please.

But her lure is inescapable
and soon I'll be free.