My White Friend

Your hands begin to sweat and your heart begins to race,
Your image my mind is already beginning to trace,
The trip to you is only 5 miles,
But it feels like forever, damn I have not seen you in awhile,
Not long ago you were all that i cared about, we were in seperatable
Until my life became what is considered to be unstable,
Family and friends would try and put all of the blame onto you,
I tried to explain to them it was me, but the still do not have a fucking clue,
They say that we are no good for each other,
That I should leave you alone and not bother,
They do not understand why I need you in my life this much,
They do not know just how my life you have managed to touched,
Yes, I admit that I have given up on a lot of stuff since I met you,
But, you are always there for me no matter what I seem to do,
Unlike all of them, so quick to turn their back,
Saying they cannot help me anymore until my life I get back on track,
What the fuck do they know anyways,
Perfect little lives, with perfect little wives, they live day after day,
I wish they could see all the good that you have brought to me,
I do not care if they cannot see,
Finally.....I am here, I cannot wait,
Jumping out of my car and running up the stairs, a few more minutes and I will find my true fate,
I look down at my watch, I know he is pissed for it is late,
Knock knock, come on what's taking you so long, I am needing to escape, become numb,
Hey Jimmie, you still have sum,
I will lay you out all nice in neat and roll up that bill this is what I will do,
Taking that bill and setting it behind you, I inhale your intoxicating powder up my nose,
AAhhh straight to my brain she quickly goes,
So, we meet again, my sweet white friend,
Where did you go, why did you have to leave me,
I was so lost without you, they were beginning to see,
Please do not do that again,
Stay with me until the very end!