I am

I am alone
Amongst a lot
As I walk
As I fall
as I crawl
And here I am getting myself up again

I am in pain

   Mentally
As I over think my thoughts
As I try and fail
As I fail and again I try
I'm I a failure?, I ask myself
As I hide these tears I cry

War in progress

Heart verses mind
I am my biggest failure
I am my biggest fear
running from my own mistakes
Just to make more mistakes
I should learn

But I am

Like a gambler
loosing from one casino
and running to another casino
May be I should quit
While I still got few pounds
Go home, consider myself a looser

But that's not who I am

I am a man
I'm no angel
Neither I'm I devil
I am my own banker
I don't  file money or cheques
Just a file of risks and mistakes

I am a builder
I have an ambition
To build a dream house
Years I spend in sketching
and I erased every sketch
But one day you will see it

You probably will smile
May be you will love it
I know some will be Jealous
You might hate
But I'm just doing this for me
me, myself and I

If you only knew you'd do the same
         Lets face it
You are your own pride
and so am I