explain the pain further... but never all the way</3

What i keep inside is a hell in my heart,
darkness in my mind, and a blade in my hand.

The first cut of the night was at sight of
the beautiful picture that i adore.

The second slice was at the thought us being
what i always needed us to be.

the third is a short tale, as i feel asleep
my dreams commenced, you were so beautiful...
all that has ever been said to be divine
would have bowed at the most tainteds feet
just to have a peak. It was the best, my love
for you was returned by your heart and it was
sworn tht we'd never fall apart... but then
i woke up and it was all ripped away, and then
the third cut appeared...

The ending cut was the most difficult...
for it was more than what was planned...
I know my love for you was to great,
the blood ive already bleed and all the
tears i shed was all becase of you in
my head... the plan was simply designed.
ill just cut the pain away and fall out
of love with you all in the same day..
The more i cut the more i bleed and the
faster i learned that your forever in my
heart.. I'll just hafe to hold myself
together to keep you from knowing the
deepest truth...

its just bad that the last cut turned out to be
"i love you"...