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Dear Diary 1st entry
Dear Diary,
He looked my way today.
I thought I would stop breathing.
Why..why did I have to choose someone who is unavailable?
I know I am paying for all those lustful thoughts I had in the past.
They were in the past.
I have a secret…I got his phone number. I have to wait till mom is asleep, and I am going to call.
Maybe I shouldn’t. What if he laughs at me? What if he thinks I’m too young? What if, what if?
No, I am going to do it. You're only young once, right?
What am I saying? It doesn’t matter. Mom won't allow it. (pouting) Why have these wants and desires just for your parents to say, “No way. You're not ready for a boyfriend.”
I could only wish to get that far.
(Push button phone. Land line. No cell phones yet)
Pushing the buttons with palms sweating and pulse racing.
“Hello,” a woman answered the phone
“Hello, is Andre home?” I asked with a little tremble in my voice
“Oh lord. Andre get your ass out the shower and answer this phone. If this phone rings again for
you, you're paying the bill.”
Did she say he was in the shower???
“Got it. Hello.”
“Hi Andre, Um it’s me Fia.”
“Fia…Fia??? Oh, the girl with the short skirt. Hey”
Omg..Oh…my…god he remembers me.
“Um. Hi. I got your number from Nikki, is that okay?”
“Yeah, it’s cool. But I can’t stay on. I just hopped out of the shower and I’m dripping all over the place. How bout we talk tomorrow night.”
He’s naked and dripping. Okay, play it cool.
“Yea okay. We'll talk tomorrow.”
“By the way. Are you at least 16?”
“Yeah? Why?”
“You look really young. Just want to check. Talk tomorrow, Fia.” Click
He said my name. I need to tell Nikki but shit I can’t.
Diary,
I called Andre, and he just came out of the shower. This is going to be a hard night for me to go to sleep.
I’m nervous. What if he wants to … do stuff. I’m ready to do stuff. I am jumping the gun. He has not broken up with his girlfriend yet. I heard it was going to happen soon. Its only the second week of school.
He was dripping. Oh man, I need to get some sleep.
He looked my way today.
I thought I would stop breathing.
Why..why did I have to choose someone who is unavailable?
I know I am paying for all those lustful thoughts I had in the past.
They were in the past.
I have a secret…I got his phone number. I have to wait till mom is asleep, and I am going to call.
Maybe I shouldn’t. What if he laughs at me? What if he thinks I’m too young? What if, what if?
No, I am going to do it. You're only young once, right?
What am I saying? It doesn’t matter. Mom won't allow it. (pouting) Why have these wants and desires just for your parents to say, “No way. You're not ready for a boyfriend.”
I could only wish to get that far.
(Push button phone. Land line. No cell phones yet)
Pushing the buttons with palms sweating and pulse racing.
“Hello,” a woman answered the phone
“Hello, is Andre home?” I asked with a little tremble in my voice
“Oh lord. Andre get your ass out the shower and answer this phone. If this phone rings again for
you, you're paying the bill.”
Did she say he was in the shower???
“Got it. Hello.”
“Hi Andre, Um it’s me Fia.”
“Fia…Fia??? Oh, the girl with the short skirt. Hey”
Omg..Oh…my…god he remembers me.
“Um. Hi. I got your number from Nikki, is that okay?”
“Yeah, it’s cool. But I can’t stay on. I just hopped out of the shower and I’m dripping all over the place. How bout we talk tomorrow night.”
He’s naked and dripping. Okay, play it cool.
“Yea okay. We'll talk tomorrow.”
“By the way. Are you at least 16?”
“Yeah? Why?”
“You look really young. Just want to check. Talk tomorrow, Fia.” Click
He said my name. I need to tell Nikki but shit I can’t.
Diary,
I called Andre, and he just came out of the shower. This is going to be a hard night for me to go to sleep.
I’m nervous. What if he wants to … do stuff. I’m ready to do stuff. I am jumping the gun. He has not broken up with his girlfriend yet. I heard it was going to happen soon. Its only the second week of school.
He was dripping. Oh man, I need to get some sleep.
Published 16th Apr 2025
Author's Note
The year was 1989. So you had land lines, beepers and if you had a cell phone,it was as big as your head. lol
So that was a push button phone.
So that was a push button phone.
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16th Apr 2025 11:44pm
Love this time period piece from 89. Can relate. Your story is smooth and real to the touch.
16th Apr 2025 11:47pm
Thank you, Keith. Yeah, it was a memorable time. Do you remember single cassette tapes?
16th Apr 2025 11:50pm
Absolutely! They were the answer to the 45 Record. A few years later the CD's made CD singles and then we moved on to MP3's.
I lived in record stores from 88 into the 2000's. Sadly there aren't to many left. At least where I live.
I lived in record stores from 88 into the 2000's. Sadly there aren't to many left. At least where I live.
17th Apr 2025 3:40am
Beautifully penned, Fia. Into the list it belongs! Loved your storytelling as I always do. Yes cell phones were like bricks in the beginning of their existence. The old push button land line, I remember using a couple of the phones that you really had to dial. Great read my friend. Appreciate you.
Damian
Damian
17th Apr 2025 3:45am
I used to hate when the cord got tangled and stretched out. lol
Thank you, Damian;))
Thank you, Damian;))
18th Apr 2025 3:24pm
Reading this, I just don't trust André, sorry. You deserve better than him. I realise he has a body to die for & he knows it, right? Lol. The excitement of this early new potential romance is descriptively clear, as are all the obstacles, i.e, interfering mothers, keeping his other girlfriends at bay & reaching the phone in time, lol!
This period of your life reminds me of opening lines to Kid Rock's song, "All Summer Long." It was 1989, my thoughts were short, my hair was long...
Great poem, Fia but also great song & well worth a listen. 😊
This period of your life reminds me of opening lines to Kid Rock's song, "All Summer Long." It was 1989, my thoughts were short, my hair was long...
Great poem, Fia but also great song & well worth a listen. 😊
18th Apr 2025 3:27pm
Thank you, Billy, for the recommendation. It was an interesting juggle. Btw Andre was not trustworthy at all. lol
18th Apr 2025 3:35pm
I thought not. He comes across as 'shifty' in your excellent diary entry, lol! 😁
