amuck

 
my thoughts crash into you with a great ache of rejection
my face turned towards yours, you look away
assaulted vision, you with someone else

my sacred vault spill out
my vulnerability on display
words tumble from my lips
ones of hurt and sadness

until it turn to anger
then my wrath burn
my heart turn into a razor
slashing at yours

darkness peak inside me
and I do the unthinkable
whispering I love you

with thoughts of treachery in mind
my mind turn dark, and I can't control myself
sabotage run amuck, I would ruin her
planting seeds of doubt
Surely such a woman was no good for you

my thoughts wane, and I restrain myself
it's better to let you go
then hurt my ego that much

darker still I would yearn and never be filled
my jealousy rose in my skies as bitterness
cancelling any beauty left in me