"spirituality "

       
       
       
    I've been raised to go to "church" the entirety of my childhood life; in hindsight- one would say it's all misguided rituals and forced fed cultlike vibes....        
       
   from the moment the mind develops enough to question why- everything under the sun will be criticized....        
       
   I'm no one's teacher- I'm not trying to be anything close.... I wake up throughout the days, afternoons, and nights thinking about how shallow all this fluff and puff stuff is they've barbwired into the human mind....        
       
  every living creature has been created with a bottomless pit stomach- there's never enough of anything- especially the concept of energy and time....        
       
       
I'm not projecting- I can't point a finger at what I'm unable to see with my own two eyes; this "love or find yourself stuff" is gaslight- we play in each others' face out of stubborn ignorance....        
       
       
  I don't belong here.... "knowledge" is a double edged sword like a nonstop spinning wielding blade at both ends- both brightens as well as deathens this experience....        
       
       
 everyone's someone's enemy- or someone's friend.... this existence here feels so ridiculous- like an invisible maze we're walking in-constantly bumping into each other on purpose or by accident- people more or less like me stopped for a minute and took a good look around and are beyond tired of it....