un-therapy

He told me he could show me  
the life I'd only dreamed of
that he could turn me  
into the person I was always
meant to be  
 
It sounded like the  
psychological equivalent of
"Jesus can save you"  
and if a dead man  
I no longer believe in  
couldn't save me from myself  
I don't know what this man could do  
 
I don't have all the answers  
and I never know what I'm doing  
but that doesn't mean  
I need a saviour  
 
I want to believe in him  
of course  
I want to believe  
there is more to my life  
than the choices I keep making  
but I call bullshit  
on this wannabe saviour  
because no one can change  
or break the foundations of my life  
not without asking me to pay a price  
I'm not willing to pay  
 
All my dreams will not come true  
and maybe, maybe I can learn  
to be less miserable  
but happiness was never the goal  
 
So I will research his fanciful claims
like the masochist I am  
but I don't think I'll be getting on  
this MLM psychological ride  
because if it really worked
why the fuck it is a secret?