Mother

Mother,
I feel,
like
an
 earthquake
got buried
in
your
womb.

Smothering,
positivity
and
the love I miss,
crumbling tomb......

I forgot
how to love,
I forgot
 how to feel,
I have
one emotion
and is
 negativity

I'm a
narcissist,
I even
hurt a kid
who hurt
 me
with her words.

She was only
a puppy at 12
I feel bad
and I feel mad
but its not enough
to assume.....
that I can change,
walk past
the firing range......

Mother,
what have become
of your beautiful
 plumply baby
Those
innocent
brown eyes
are
lost in this world,
and turned to green,
radiantly
bleeding
from the
thorns........
brown to green,
I see red.