I Have Nothing To Lose

I read comments from The Atheist Experience Episode I was on out of curiosity. They thought I deserved to be mocked, but I find atheists' tactics to undermine me are stupid and juvenile. They think it's just a courtesy to treat me nice. No, bitch, it's an honor.

I realize truly what it means to have nothing left to lose. No one's words including theirs can truly hurt the way it used to.

Because I know how intelligent I am and how stupid they are. Where they see black and white, I see grey. I see me trusting my intuition and trusting that I know what I saw- the door locking on its own and my mom seeing it.

I have a very wise path compared to the typical atheists and Christians.

I see...beyond.

And I'm going to find it.

I'm at the point where I have made my decision- Christian churches aren't for me, but neither are the hardcore atheist groups. I won't go where I'm not valued.

I'm wise beyond my years, and I'm no longer babysitting the toddlers.