a melancholy thursday evening in september

life is yin and yang and the black always gives way to the white.
things are going to be okay but sometimes I miss parts that are gone and feel anxious about the unknown.
sometimes i wonder if the decisions i've made are wise or foolish and sometimes i know.
at times like this, i'd rather be alone by myself than alone in a crowd.
all humans make mistakes.
i wish we could talk. that wasn't a mistake. that i just miss.
sometimes the shorter vision doesn't show everything either. i'll trust years to sort everything out and make it all good.
nothing is very clear in life close up. and only some things from a distance.  maybe i just haven't gotten far enough away yet.
i miss certain colors so much. i miss the reds.

9/7/08