Why do you do that to thyself 🤔

I can't really understand why do you do that to thyself, 🤔 for it's not going to change anything that you can't change thyself. FOR sure it's literally just a fix for a moment and then you find thyself, sometimes hurting in pain or be getting thoughts on killing yourself or hurting those who care deeply about you. 🤨 YET you continue to do what you do to thyself, thinking it's gonna help you navigate, through the darkness of the evil forces, that seems to control your thoughts calling you affecting your insight and life. Yet you still believe that it's helping you to cope with the deepness of the deepness of the shadows demons, hidden behind close doors telling yourself one more time just fooling thyself into believing after this time, I promise that this is the last time. 🤨 For don't you know sometimes that could be your fault and your last time. 😭 if you die from taking to much drugs into your system, for that alone, can kill you only to be hospitalized. FOR your own protection from thyself 😳 is that what you want and need, to sustain your own life hooked up to a breath machine, 🤨 or a heart monitor to make sure your heart is still ticking in your chest. 😞 YET you are there still wishing 😔 for a 💉 or a drink or more dangerous drugs, 🥃 to put into your system which is the temple of your soul and body, just so that you can feel the same pain 😞 does that make sense to you.🤔 By becoming a junkie as you are unreachable as you are out there in a world. 🌎 Just existing for your next high just wanting to feel the same damn pain. 😞                                          
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