Standing At The Edge of an Abyss

I'm standing at the edge of an abyss,
 
about to be pushed in everytime.
 
This is why support groups or Meetup is no longer comforting, but rather patronizing.
 
Went to one last night. They put words in my mouth that I did not say, gaslighting me. I always experience this, not surprised or even fazed by stupid smiles or stupid tricks. Just for being blunt and authentic, I was shunned when not every time I was. But lately I find myself less and less supported by them.
 
And it doesn't surprise me that they did not let this girl who was gonna share something inspiring and meaningful to me share.  
 
Nah, time was up, back to your cage, silent.
 
Of course if it was someone else, they wouldn't do this. They'd get leeway. They'd get praise and extra time.
 
But me, I get silence, and at this point, I don't care. I'm moving on. People wanna disrespect me? They get the foot and the door!
 
I gladly left that support group and deleted my Meetup account.
 
Too many fucking fake smiles and fake applauses.  
 
Bitch please, go somewhere else.
 
I'm the queen here, not you. That dog I control.
 
At least I use my power responsibly.
 
I'm done here.