my love doesn't alter

 
heartbroken in the soul of me
a scarred terrain
indiscretions brutalize
and I don't trust anymore

vulnerable in a feeling
I can't go back, I can't go forward
if I leave I will hurt, if I stay I will be hurt

my love for you doesn't fade
but it aches
so full on the good days
so bad when you push me away

I'm uncertain what you think you will find with someone else
the magic elixer
the perfect combination
perhaps you would

my affections don't alter
I know there is no one more perfect for me
and I'm not looking

honesty of feeling
you damage me when you pick a fight
just so you can storm off
your anger your excuse

I'm tired of fighting for us alone
but I don't know how to let you go
it's unfair I carry the pain
of a relationship strained by lust
my soul withers feeling you slip away

my sadness mine to bear alone