seven fucking years

I dont want you to touch me
i dont want to feel your breathe
at the nape of my neck
Not tonight, handsome
tonight
You will not trail kisses
From my neck to my tummy
Do not nibble on my lips...
Dont touch my breast,nipples:..
For tonight i cannot wait
any more,much longer...
It has been seven years
Of touching myself...
Holding myself,loving myself..
Fingering myself...
Fucking myself i wish...
When you said goodbye,
At the airport stalls,
After one last romping...
As you sat on the toilet seat...
And i rode your joystick...
Poured your jizz in me;
as they announced your flight;
You kissed me one last time
And as the clock ticked,,,
as i watched each sun set:
I letno man touch me;
no woman either...
Even when i wanted it so
For i waited for you
Selfishly hoping
But you are a man...
And seven years is too long;
For a man.. Any sane man...
Yet tonight,
when you enter that door...
Do not rush at me
Do not come to hug me...
Stand at that door way
And watch me,
survive like i have done
Wait like i have waited:
And after everything,
After you understand it all...
I want you to walk out that door..
Dont even bother banging it...
For it has been seven years...
Long and lonely;
but without you!