Mirror of Self-Loath

       Restless & irritable...Pains of uncomfortable, underlining new skin of suffocation. Drowning sober of choking. Treading with my head just above the waves of living life...Hardest job, Work load of constant strident drive. Harder when you don't want to try. Never the driver, just a passenger of backseat status. Can't see ahead, just the rear view mirror of backwards flow, filling the shoes I've already tread. Lectures of I told you so, always a fuck up, sights of never right. Now I recall why I jumped & took this flight of astronomical sight. Ennui feelings of listlessness caused by sheer boredom at play stack higher each passing day. Boiling over as the water hisses off the stove. Feral long scream of a captive wild animal wanting to run free. Obloquy, offensive, disrespectful marks ringing in my ears. Wishing I had a knife to slice out the tongue of such hate...Song of sweet silence delivering a little quietude of peace. Red is the stop light...The car door is cracked...Green is the go light...Car door wide open...Running into the night...Running into freedom...Running through the yellow light of caution.