Can't Get Back To Sleep

Wide awake at 5 am
and slightly frustrated
on this cherished Saturday

This is the day I can sleep in,
but this brain won't let me

Thinking about things I've put off
and how I'm being screwed over by someone

Not a healthy start,
I agree.

And then there is Christmas.

Working in retail,
it takes on a whole new dimension
those songs relentless since November
almost encouraging a rebellious urge
to resist it as long as possible

It will be another gamble
to see if that thoughtfulness
will fit the bill

There was a time when it seemed effortless,
but not so much now.

But the season has been dramatically altered
from what it once was

There used to be so many people around
and now so few

But the mission is set,
eventually I'll have to wade into the public sphere

I don't have many to buy for,
and most don't really need stuff

I'm fortunate that way

Even the kid (now a teen)
has a reasonable list

But already now at 6am
I feel a distraction could do me good

So here I am...
lurking
hoping
open
to a temporary escape