Anger from within

From the beginning, your heart wasnt in it,
said yu tried yur best to love me
but it drove yu to insanity
Said i wasn't good enough, pretty enough
i second-questioned myself because i wasnt smart enough
Even when i needed a way out, yu put my confidence in doubt
Looked in the mirror, screamed and tried to shout
Made me feel guilty, because of me, yu stayed
If i didnt exist, you would be far away.
Supposed to hide, lie said things were breezy
Still put me down, boy yu had it easy
I felt solace away, in the shadows
When i was with yu, i hated my shadows,
I was never the one, yur daughter that yu needed
always made me try to make up when yu didnt succeed
calling around wondering, where am i ?
what does it matter, with yu i rather die
criticizing when it was necessary to yu,
told me dnt let others irritate yu
yu laughed when i cried,
joked when i attempted suicide
and even then, didnt believe me
yu watched from a distance and saw me perish
let myself go, my life isnt so cherished
tell me im like the one i most hate,
im still young, so i rlly cant articulate
around ppl, yu show a different side of yu,
made me out to be the bad guy when they didnt know the truth
what i do, isnt good enough
i supposed to be what yu want me to be, like it thats tough,
others know this, im going through a trough
i got it from yu, the hurt, depression
yu let me see,
when i was little, all yu did was sleep
i wanted to leave, find myself at least
im lost, no where to be found
on the verge of a deep bleed,
what do yu do, yu let it happen
the hate, hurt, so
yu can snap and say its all my fault
...
i laid in my bed, almost every sleepless night,
wishing, wishing, yu were never in my sight...
im the reason why yur here, yur dealing with him ,
im the reason for yur unhappiness,
im the reason
im the reason
im the reason
im the reason
im the reason why yu hate yurself
how could yu have a daughter this evil,
like a monster,
and im not an extension of yu,
am i ? am i ?
im the bottom of the earth, right ?
so unhappy, just making yu unhappy,
when i leave, yu will finally be satisfied.
huh? huh?
yu saw me, watched me, told me that yu could never listen to me
i was just someone taking up space,
spending money,
making yu stressed,
because all of yur problems right now
revolves around me !