if I could at will-I'd escape into a better realm

             
             
             
    unlike edits and corrections on a literal writing piece; life experiences are like overlapping graffiti stains that's made its mark upon ones' psyche;            
             
    scrubbing those walls could feel like centuries-though it doesn't take away ones' memories; that's why I absolutely understand what it means to subconsciously browse the archives- then a drink is what one needs....            
             
 do we have freewill? yes. but this "matrix" does deceive; so do we really? they say the "devil's in the details"- life's portrait's quite a piece-            
             
 when I listen to my peers- that speak about the truth- when it comes to all things nature- and ourselves we can't exclude- I understand completely the destain for "god's" creation- there's a lot of yellow tape by design of "nature's" muse....            
             
even when one tries ones' best; one could slip into the pool- which can lead to sudden death- or ones' psyche feels abused....          
           
  if I could- I'd like to dissappear- what's really here to see? the nature of this portrait overall-the details do deceive- but you'll have someone that looks at you and try to get a read- on why you're glitching in this matrix- because the numbers number deep....        
         
there's a "love-hate" relationship(with life)- because it's all one knows; doesn't matter what one's told to follow or believe.... but I understand first hand how it feels to want to leave....        
         
  life's portrait's quite a piece.... navigating is a "beach"-where there's "shark infested waters"(by design) higher ground is just as bleak- when one dives into the nature of what makes the portrait speak....      
     
if I could at will- I'd escape into a better realm for peace....