Marilyn

 
pretty litte clown, smiling for you through the tears
you can't see them but my soul is drowning
sorrow persuades me to stay
gentle feeling, I'm in love
 
little affection, you don't need me
so I play my part
looking good for your dark
 
tender meaning, I play dumb so you look smart
please see me struggling, just to breathe
feeling abandoned and alone
my voice strangled, I can't say what I feel
 
you just want me to look good
deeper feeling I feel too much
you think I'm crazy
that I need to be silenced
 
medication helps me forget
the emotions that overwhelm
deeper regret, I'll never love another
 
a spectacle of fate, a beacon to the dark
hidden secrets, I'm the girl you want to bed
painful understanding, not the respectable type
just an object to you, a dolly you shelve after
 
sadness rises and I fall into a pit of despair
serious need, to be understood
fateful day, that won't happen until I die