Would You? Would I?

I can survive
admiring from afar
maybe it isn't the most ideal
but think of what we can do
how we can explore ourselves
maybe more than
we would ever have the courage to do
in the flesh

If what we write inspires
it can guide us to an acceptance
that maybe we couldn't achieve
if we were just acquaintances
navigating the confusion and caution
inherent in this living world

Would you tell me that you you want to act out that taboo fantasy
that has been responsible for successive soakings?
Would you trust me enough to reveal who it was
without the fear that I would automatically assume
that it was something you'd done or wanted to?

Would I confess an interest in being joined with you
in the presence of another couple,
individually engaged in our respective couplings
but also open enough to see what might happen
if we dared to become entwined with them physically?

Could we play in the possibilities, you and I?

Would we even make it to a second or third date
by restricting some of those underlying wants
be appearing proper and respectful
and ultimately deem the other boring
without ever really getting deep
into the madness and the quiet motivations
that keep us engaged in this pulse of life?

My therapist told me I was a "complicated" man the other day.
And I took it as a great compliment
as she elaborated that by my job title alone
I would be easily dismissed by many people
as someone not questing to get into the roots
of human existence and complication inherent in our unique psychologies

She saw the poet, the empath, the self-deprecating comic

Not just an underpaid single dad, working a survival job and being perceived as someone who doesn't have their shit together.

And you know,
it felt so nice to be seen
in a rather honest and candid discussion

Maybe that complication is evident right here

See how I transitioned from matters of the imagination (which I was quite enjoying)
into this, just so I could go a little...

"deeper"