child of fate

 
sadness Father and fear
cradled to your bossom
with acknowledgement of your power

silently in and out of pain I cried out
the spirits circle around
and I sought deliverance
none could be found

travailing in utter chaos
succor of the world won't fix me
there is a brokeness of being

with hopes it saves me in the eternal
proper respect for you Father, is shown
knowing not the Master's artistry and suffering

quietly I await your judgement of my life
Jacob have you loved Esau have you hated

Father did you know Esau before he was delivered to his mother's womb?

did you know me also?

so hateful an existence I ran in so many universes's
hidden in your eye

Father have I gone so far as to not come back?

life in and out
searching for you
just to find how frightful you are
to a child, who dare look in your beautiful terrible face

and ask why...