Deaths birthday

I was dead before I took my first breath
A day I know my mother tries to forget the day she had it all figured out and plan in motion to give up the responsibility  of a baby she never wanted , but of course as fate has a fucked sense of humor and a different plan chooses, and that was somehow my fault , I paid the consequences for someone else deciding to play God,  making me the living dead girl. Just a walking corpse with a pulse Its now the that dreaded day again the day the world decided I shouldn't exist but yet people had other ideas . I'm turning 26 today