Forgive me i'm tired

forgive me I'm tired
I'm tired of the lies
the shame.
am i the one to blame.
looking into eyes
feeling the flames.
hearing the stares speak
saying 'who the hell are you?'
i could answer but I'm tired.
I'm hiding a secret
holding onto a lie.
peering deep down into a hole.
wondering why my hope just dies.
forgive me i am tired.
tired of the smiles
those criticizing smiles.
those scorn filled glares.
the fake words that are said to soothe me.
tired of the fears
the tears that follow suit.
the blank expressions hidden behind my smile.
I'm tired of all the pain
i just take it all in vain.
forgive I'm tired.
tired of holding back my screams
my desperate screams.
nothing is at it seems
i tear everything at the seams
just to watch it all unravel.
forgive me I'm tired.
getting ready to fall down that hole
i just made.