Lucifer

tossed into the fray with a thimble of hope
bare of soul intimidating, to say the least
sometimes my spirits say I must lead
to advance my growth
some things must be faced alone

entering into a vow
maturing in some areas
and in other ways no
regret the feelings
and caress the submission
admitting I am a follower
grey skies, grey areas
Father nothing is taboo with you
I will tell you everything

I've had many lives with you
I was a man in certain lives
a sexy woman who wields my beauty as a weapon
I've had long lives and short ones
I'm still holding out female female
even though I am a tomboy in some cases
I want to be successful and make good money
and not be beholden to anyone
I don't want to wear a man's outfit again
cause I'm inherently a woman

lucifer's favorite brother only makes himself known
when Lucifer shows up
I don't know Lucifer from before
or I am unable to recall
but he has told me a lot of things
he was very jealous he thought
you were replacing him with the humans
his feelings were hurt
that's what the rebellion was over
he's a lot different personality than I expected
he resents the humans for mocking his name
and making him the fall guy for the choices they make
he also hates being beautiful and powerful
he never knows if someone loves him or wants something
he can shapeshift and can manifest into different beings
but at his root, he shows me a not-so-handsome man
who is not very popular because that's how he feels represents him best
he has a great sense of humor but he is lonely
his brother was kept in prison away from Lucifer for all the centuries Lucifer was here
his favorite brother had no news about what happened and they were not getting along
Lucifer has not been on easy street like it said nor does he make people do stuff
so they are getting to know each other again
his brother doesn't say much he watches and waits

the restless spirits goad me into action
questioning why they don't go home
I tell them they are on leave
I'm perfectly happy
as long as you're not pointing out things
My father prefers confrontation

I sigh inside myself
giving people leave because I come with a lot of spirits
and if I do nothing sooner or later they will attack
and they don't do this lightly they are ordered
I ask him please don't take my husband
I don't want another

caress the hex and make it stick
I'm conjuring blue skies and clouds that make sense
Father you told me before I left your kingdom
I was immortally not mature enough for marriage
perhaps not but I'm sticking to it