settles for wisdom the greater fate

 
hearing the echo in the corridor
your footsteps told me you're leaving
you're leaving and, my soul is shattering
my pneuma is breath of your breath
 
surrendering to you utterly
my vow I will follow you to my death
my dearest Adonai
 
if you wish it you will not see me
but like I, you can feel my movements
confession, I get close to people and you take  them from me
you and the men say they aren't good enough for me
 
you harden their hearts against me
and take them away
I am devastated and you want to vanish on me
you, my love are frightened
because you have fallen in love with me
it matters not to me, your age
 
I do remember you from the garden  
long white robes long white hair and a beard
you stood in the shadows and watched on
The Tree of Knowledge was not for her
she broke your trust
and that means everything to you
 
I did not see Lucifer in the garden or the man Adam
midnight struck and she was thrown out  
the specifics I will not say because you asked me not to
 
something is on your mind
and I can't help
for a long time while you were away I grieved
trying to fend for myself
I admit it I needed you
 
Father, I have witnessed a lot of things
and after Eons I am still here because you love me
and I hide the best
Daddy, it matters not how old you are
I want to stay with you
please don't send me away  
to a diverse university in the galaxies, I don't know
I will cleave to your side
Father, I know more than men know
 
if you will kill me utterly who sing to you
and return the unconditional love we give each other
knowing I am a keeper and visions  
you are hiding something from me
that's why you are holding something back
 
a sweet sister in sin has emerged from the shadows
to tell me some secrets to make me wise
she will not be so careless as to tell me her name
she is here to bring my soul some rest
 
I've always told the powers that be to masquerade when they come
and veil their minds to protect our thoughts and identity
once I'm sure we have a private wavelength
I tell her to send the information it will go straight to my mind
there are so many levels in my mind
 
all the knowledge she sent is high-clearance access
she says the word among the powers that be
my error with Adonai is I put people above him
I asked for fairness concerning my spouse
he was a womanizer when we met
not to mention I came with a few legion-strong
and you guys terrorized him
 
no one would be good enough for me in your minds
I'm attracted to him because he doesn't scare off easy
I dare say this is the reason
I've seen what you can do and it actually saddens me
when you are so hard on the humans  
 
while it's true I don't know much about these people inside
but I feel too guilty to name the judgment you carried out
on my behalf because you thought it was necessary
a keeping of the balances
 
Adonai it's all in balance I'm sure
and the order in nature  
natural selection  
only the strong survive
 
my request Father  
you will be kind to the people I love