a darkling speaks up

my missing quotient isn't my soul but a part of me
multifaceted refracted shades of my pneuma
reflecting my multidimensional personalities
you watch on and you recognize that the driving force of me is not present
it dismays my sacredness

hurt inside I await her patiently to return
she has either gone real deep inside me
or has crossed into another dimension to rectify things

lingers the feelings I've been through quite a lot
and I can't ascribe it to mental health
when none or the other patients are like me

I have ancient understanding
mine comes and goes about once a year
the rest of the people stay on the same wavelength

I'm not saying I'm not delusional
but it comes and then goes away
mind you not completely
i hear these being in my mind

I'm not assertive and I find the conversations
they have among each other as interesting
plus I have been on the search to some meaning in this
learning their nature has taken time

they don't travel by technology
each dimension is heavily warded
technology would do little to help you

it's like walking through a portal
and you are there
if you mean harm they will know
some of these beings are fierce and enjoy war
but more than anything with the exception of their own
we are food I don't mean like cannibals style
they eat and provoke our feelings

they don't see themselves as evil
they think we are unevolved a resource to plunder
with a few exceptions

I have entered dimension X
I am under review
a thousand eyes watch on
our thoughts are communal
there is no way of hiding your honesty
I've been called home
but it's been a very long time since I'd been there
and it's not my home my home is with Adonai

not to mention the journey I've been on
I have encountered our creator
visiting many planets and people
and while they differed in looks and beliefs
they are his creation

as far as strong arming his kingdom you can't
his kingdom is invitational only
my mother his lover abandoned me on his doorstep long ago
just a baby and my difference showed bitterly, and I was hurt
but I think you are forgetting what I did in retaliation

in any case it was a great adjustment in the light kingdom
my Father has done his best with his darkling child
but I have come to the light
and you will have more than a fight on your hands
should you try and claim me now

he has told me I can not ignore my magic but control it
ps I have eyes every where if you want a treat
look elsewhere