you assume i'm fine

i know it wasn't right,
i know it isn't fair
to cuddle with you
to deeply want you
even though i knew you still love me.

even though i don't understand why
your friends seem to hate me
it hurts
but i assume that's what i deserve
after what you've been through.

now i'm afraid to fuck it all up
again.
i don't want to hurt you
again.
i want to share my life with you
again.
i don't know if i'm ready for it
are you ready for it?

because right now,
i'd jump head first
to get you back.
"you selfish little bitch"
screams a small voice from the inside of my mind

my friend is hurt from my girl's rejection
my girl is hurt from my rejection
and when the clock finally strikes midnight
and the stars kiss the moon goodnight
i stand between all those questions - hurt.
silly little love triangles