i want what you can give me

i want what you can give me
or at least i think i do
your messages, your face in my mind
they haunt me all damn night

i want you to give me that attention
to be soft and sweet and - oh, not again neglection!
i‘ll let you walk all over my boundaries
end up being used and never getting to have anniversaries.

i hate the power you have over me
and my power over you, the one i physically feel
can’t you just be nice to me, supportive even?
can‘t you show me affection, love i really believe in?

all you do is use me, want makes place for condescension
only when you want me and the release for your tension
you’re nice, but anytime else you put me down, can’t handle my light?
this time, i will try and begin to fight.