wallflower

 
counting my breaths one, two, three and exhale
calm down soul it's not that important
useless feeling love when its not returned

I tell myself this but the burning need says differently
connected on the ether I feel his soul mingling with mine
coming close then pulling back

powerful feelings become my heart's beat
dignity be damned being alone isn't better
my resolve waivers and I reach out

burying my pride choosing emotional suicide
your gruff demeanor should be a red flag
but it only turns me on
your ego is sexy to me

a man of confidence speaks to the wallflower in me
screaming pick me this wildflower in the rough
shadowed by my doubts

I bloom in the shade whether you notice me or not
but what I'm really hoping is you'll notice if I'm not there