Love, Guilt, Breakup, Death

As I master my thoughts  
Reality is erased  
I crucify myself in time  
And my blood drains  
My heart, pure and innocent    
Abandons me  
I can no longer feel the pain  
The world has laid on my shoulders  
Forever once was real  
But now it no longer is  
It's nonexistent and filled with false hope  
Reality pretends to be my mind  
And my mind pretends to be unreal  
As I become numb  
Erased reality contradicts    
Not itself but the truth  
And as we live  
The truth knows our lies  
This isn't so, this isn't right  
But has death achieved greatness  
If so love is real  
And love is gone  
So are we