Malevolent

 
driving through the redeeming thoughts
thoughts that could kill
little dying effigies
cornered but I won't break

I face my demons even the ones that scare me
savage soul singling in the dark light
illuminating my will

it is with a great effort I don't give in
and the worst of them make me laugh
I laugh in the face of fear

maybe reckless but it's my response
I know them well they have respect for me
darkens the faith my need outweighs the beguiling truth

the bible is a spell I was under
demons didn't create themselves
god resides in heavy darkness

he's much more malevolent than I believed as a child
I still love him just differently as he has revealed himself
it is a strange thing I mean he is kind of bad
and if you read the bible correctly he doesn't deny it
he just states hey I'm a bad ass and I'll do what I want with you

so far no contender has stepped up to disagree with him
I say my peace why try and lie about it
I tell him he's unfair he's like yeah so?

so I enter his onyx kingdom all eyes are on me
Father are you to condemn me being a vessel wrought for destruction
or will you find some place for a child who will answer you honestly
you have enough yes men
and if were to praise you feeling the way I do right now you would strike me

I have faith enough to love you no matter what
I hope you do the same for me in the end