Hi Da

I need more time.
It's hard to go on
believing
everything will be fine.
I know it will.
But I don't feel like
I'm ready.
To let go
is to accept
the unthinkable.
I've lived through it.
Survived.
Unpleasantly.
But I am struggling
to endure it.
There is so much left
unsaid.
Undone.
I need time
to phrase this
in a way that
doesn't dishonour
your memory.
This is just
a reminder
to myself.

- your loving son.