The Week In Hell

I let it fall apart
and I probably cannot repair
my errors in judgement

Yes, that was plural
this low state makes you see things,
invent things
based on jealously and misunderstanding

And then the suspension from work,
I let them finally win
pushing my buttons
to a point
that my reaction
led to an unintended dismissal

All in one week
I seem to set this life ablaze
sabotaging kindness
in my weakness

In my vulnerable state
I allowed the negativity to enter me
and now I am embarrassed and confused

I pray there will be a way back
to dignity/to enjoyment

Seems when you keep things at bay
they have a way
of overtaking you
and spreading misery
like flames
consuming those in the path