Lucifer

 
riffs of self hatred morose explanations of where I went wrong why bother
it doesn't turn back time
you are ensconsed in those you trust
and the level of dark you ask me to express just mystifies me
surely that can't be what you represent

I feel you come close then pull away
it seems like many lives ago we were so close
deeply entwined it seems I made your soul a vow
truly I never thought to see the light of day

for centuries I wonder did you wait
I know you embraced the others your trusted
now I can reach out and touch you
I can hear you on the winds
but I haven't seen you as yet

I wonder will you look the same
I suspect you've worn many hats
time has corrupted us all

my hope was you would walk free
seems time has made fools of us all
and you've discovered you really never needed me

yet you jealously watch over me taking away those I love
and I wonder when my debt to you will be paid
I am an imperfect being too girly to be a real man
too manly to be your woman

yet my love seems to assault your senses
you appear to me in broken vessels
perhaps you tire of all the adoration
and simply want to be seen
and not looked up to