waking up again

 
 
 
    sometimes it feels, "different"- most times it feels the same- waking back up within a vessel filled with veins-
 
     a deep depression washes over me like pouring rain; inhailed and exhaled breaths to me don't feel any less strange-
 
   I don't associate myself with what's known as my name; this in-body experience feels much like a weird thing-
 
   I want to separate "myself"- from this body and its pain; I want to know true peace- instead of mind feeling insane....
 
  I know there's just illusion- no matter what may "change...."