Are you happy now monster?!

I can't let it go
But I don't have any proof  
So I guess the monster just gets to run loose  
 
Something special to me
Taken away without my consent  
Stolen by selfish lust  
You broke me
You broke my ability to trust  
 
"You have to pay for the alcohol" is all that you said before you laid me down on that bed
 
That doesn't seem like a fair exchange  
If I would have known  
I never would have drank  
 
You took off your pants and sat on the bed
then you took off my belt  
I don't even remember how I felt  
I was so drunk there was just confusion in my head  
"I'm too drunk to care" is all that I said  
 
You stole something from me
Something I tried so hard to protect  
I was too drunk  
I couldn't consent  
 
I couldn't push you off because my arms were too heavy  
By that point you stole so much already  
 
I think I was passed out for most of it
Or blacked out at least  
 
All I remember is you on top of me
 with your hand over my mouth so I couldn't make noise  
While I was suffering you were smiling  
Was it my suffering that you enjoyed?
 
Everything hurt in the morning  
My face was bruised  
I felt dirty and used  
 
But that pain was nothing compared to the pain of knowing I lost the one thing I've tried so hard not to lose  
 
Are you happy now monster?!  
Are you satisfied?!
 
You brag to your friends about how you fucked me that night  
 
You definitely fucked me!!!