Bloodshed In My Ghosts Tears I Drown

A haunting figure is stalking me  
An apparition of my future  
Blending my past and present reality  
In these three prisms I'm sutured  
In a river of endless red  
I'm mesmerized and spellbound    
By the impending bloodshed  
In my ghost tears I drown    
I try to open my eyes  
And take heed of his warning    
Living this life I despise  
Empty emotions without mourning  
Do I take this continual path  
In this world of hell where I live  
Or do I face my God's wrath  
And beg him to please forgive  
My ghost has all the answers  
But my secrets he won't tell  
Plagued by addictive cancers  
Tasting this guilt I can't dispel  
So I sit here and wait patiently    
For my spectre to give a sign  
Numb to my lifes complacency    
Haunted by ghosts throughout time  
Counting a lifetime of mistakes and lies  
In the restless shadows my ghost hides  
Contemplating the details of my suicide  
Living in purgatory where we both reside