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I Hate It Here
It is so frustrating
When I get a small scrape
Or red mark
On my arm
And my mind immediately goes to self harm
And I need to sit down
And breathe my way out of it
And everyone looks at me like I’m crazy
I don’t want to think this way
But I have to
Because I’m stuck with it
When I get a small scrape
Or red mark
On my arm
And my mind immediately goes to self harm
And I need to sit down
And breathe my way out of it
And everyone looks at me like I’m crazy
I don’t want to think this way
But I have to
Because I’m stuck with it
Published 8th May 2024
Author's Note
It happens like three times a week, and most of the time, it’s not a big deal. But seeing that scrape or mark and then seeing things that I could possibly harm myself with is a little angering. I’ve been clean for 7 months now, and as wonderful as it sounds to cut all my feelings out, I cannot. I am getting better and I don’t want to do that no matter how many ways my brain tries to convince me
Edit:
I don’t know if it can even be possible but sometimes I wonder if I’m picking my nails and pulling at the skin till it bleeds, not because it’s satisfying or annoying or I’m anxious, but it’s just my self harm but in another form. That terrifies me because I think it’s true.
Edit:
I don’t know if it can even be possible but sometimes I wonder if I’m picking my nails and pulling at the skin till it bleeds, not because it’s satisfying or annoying or I’m anxious, but it’s just my self harm but in another form. That terrifies me because I think it’s true.
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8th May 2024 2:09pm
I get this.
Negative coping skills are still coping skills. It’s replacing them with positive skills that’s key.
Also, visualization works. When you see that mark, try to envision something opposite. And make a game out of it. When you challenge your brain it’s distracting.
Just my thoughts.
Negative coping skills are still coping skills. It’s replacing them with positive skills that’s key.
Also, visualization works. When you see that mark, try to envision something opposite. And make a game out of it. When you challenge your brain it’s distracting.
Just my thoughts.
8th May 2024 3:23pm
8th May 2024 11:17pm
