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Manipulated Spirits?
Manipulated spirits?
Insinuation hears it.
Particulate the jeering.
Within you hate endearment.
Proliferate appearance.
Administrated weirdness.
Affiliated cheering.
Commiserate sincerest.
Anticipate a leering.
Origination gearing.
Capitulate some fearing.
Your indication clearest.
Initiation nearing.
Delineation dearest.
Deliberated fierceness.
Participation lyrics.
Articulated peering.
Assimilate from Seering.
Reciprocate what's realest.
Equivocation stealing.
Exhilarated feelings.
Debilitating dealing.
Dissimulation here is.
Humiliation healing?
Obliteration rearing.
Disintegration steering.
Incineration searing.
Eliminate appealing.
Invigorate revealing.
Precipitate concealment.
Propitiation pierces.
Facilitated kneeling.
Insinuation hears it.
Particulate the jeering.
Within you hate endearment.
Proliferate appearance.
Administrated weirdness.
Affiliated cheering.
Commiserate sincerest.
Anticipate a leering.
Origination gearing.
Capitulate some fearing.
Your indication clearest.
Initiation nearing.
Delineation dearest.
Deliberated fierceness.
Participation lyrics.
Articulated peering.
Assimilate from Seering.
Reciprocate what's realest.
Equivocation stealing.
Exhilarated feelings.
Debilitating dealing.
Dissimulation here is.
Humiliation healing?
Obliteration rearing.
Disintegration steering.
Incineration searing.
Eliminate appealing.
Invigorate revealing.
Precipitate concealment.
Propitiation pierces.
Facilitated kneeling.
Published 1st May 2024
Author's Note
This is about someone trying to find identity in drugs, and the resulting process of alienation from personality. This could allude to my past, in experimenting with psychedelic drugs, and cannabis, searching for "answers" or some kind of "mentality." It ends with realizing Christ's sacrifice (propitiation pierces, facilitated kneeling), leading to baptism and repentance of sin. Such could be a similar experience for someone else out there, I suppose, in their "spirit journey" of "self" and using drugs, only to realize you get deeply alienated and depersonalized. That can lead to addressing the issues of depending on drugs, as well as insincerity and insecurity in self to want to use such things to have identity to begin with.
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1st May 2024 9:02am
Hi. This was very well written and a
different way of looking at the use of drugs.
You name the drug, I've prob tried it and maybe still am.
Not hard stuff. So to see use as a manipulation of spirit,
is interesting. It pretty much is. I feel like life can be " debilitating dealing",
and we are in search of those "exhilarated feelings".
A lot of strength of conviction in your words.
Nice job, def thought provoking!
different way of looking at the use of drugs.
You name the drug, I've prob tried it and maybe still am.
Not hard stuff. So to see use as a manipulation of spirit,
is interesting. It pretty much is. I feel like life can be " debilitating dealing",
and we are in search of those "exhilarated feelings".
A lot of strength of conviction in your words.
Nice job, def thought provoking!
1st May 2024 3:40pm
Thanks for checking it out and giving some thought to the commentary. Yeah, it sort of becomes a journey of "identity," or at least it did for me. I came to discover that yes, I was a different person with the stuff. Discovering myself without the stuff has been a much more rewarding and fulfilling "journey," if you will, in that I no longer feel like I have to explore some mysterious fascination or ultimate astonishment or bewildering inquisition. I was going for capturing that sort of wild wonder here. I have answers now in purpose and truth, and I've gained trust in them. I'm no longer lost.
1st May 2024 4:46pm
1st May 2024 10:58am
Indeed thought provoking. The writing is really sharp and your metaphors are perfect in execution.
1st May 2024 3:42pm
Thanks for the encouragement, commentary, and checking it out. It's just a form of soul-searching to me, that I ended up dealing with. Thankfully, I'm healing more and more each day, and I no longer need to saturate my brain with chemicals to personify myself. The "needs" of fulfillment are in relationships.
2nd Aug 2024 7:24am
This really hits home. I quit drinking a little over a year and a half ago. After being an alcoholic off and on for the last 30 years. More on than off, but I've had to find my identity without a drink. Plus, I've done a lot of soul searching, just to find out the answer was right in front of my face the whole time. God gives you the right lens to see the world through. Brilliant write, this belongs in the list. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
2nd Aug 2024 8:30am
Thanks, man. I'm a recovering addict myself. A lot of this is just venting some of the confusion and frustration of the journey, even if just simply life, heh. Yeah, I feel for your struggle. I guess they say take it one day at a time, and you begin to heal. Hope you're doing well in your recovery. Mine's been a patch of slipperiness, to be honest, heh. I struggle with alcohol myself. Anyway, again, thanks for checking this out. It's really appreciated.
