Ill take the blame

It’s good that you confessed … now you have to face the sentence… that you’re free

A - fucking - men!! Well spoken Sam! Thank you for reading.

I've done no wrong and I will never be truly free until justice❤️

But that's the point here. Sometimes we have to let go of what is killing us, even if it kills us to let go. In a war, there is casualties on both sides. Even the side that is in the right. Do we need the war? Do we need more destruction? We must weigh this choice carefully. I will no longer fight a war that I do not care about winning.

my husband pushed me to an edge of cliff like he did his first wife he confessed to me he used to shoot up meth when he was with his first wife behind her back he likes to take broken people and then get them to be strung out when they feel hopeless and worthless and in the way of his fun his name is greed he told me it wasn't enough I was broken he wants me dead... he pits everyone in the family I have loved each in my own way and my mind is clear enough to see who my enemy has always been he chose war against all my family he's going to get one now and I have years of evidence brain damage because of his lies and treachery he uses threats and intimidation to keep people silent I have on the cloud him boasting when he is drunk and we're alone what the family doesn't know is his intent for them is the same. and then boasts how he is going to leave me homeless and them too in the end he chose this war I will defend my life and heart to the end..

As you should but I dont know if this is the most healthy way to go about protecting yourself Crim. You are consumed by this. There is rage. There is a desire for vengence which is beyond justice. I have read through quite a few of your writes, both this account and your other. I find them hard to read because of how heavy they are. I feel your pain and anger. But I also see you in an abyss that a part of you seems to find comfort in. You cannot stay here where you are mentally. Even if you get your vengence or Justice, then what? Will you be fixed? Will you be complete? Will you have the things you desire from life? Sometimes it takes more strength to walk away. Not for someone else's benefit but rather for ours. Because holding onto everything you are holding is keeping you tied down in place. Stuck in time. Unable to change the past and unwilling to move forward. Vengence belongs to the Lord, yes? Then trust in him and work on yourself. Get out of that environment. Its toxic and seeping through your veins. It is infecting you. Leave. I realize that may not be easy but do it anyway. Whatever it takes. Fucking leave. Do what needs to be done. All this resolve you just displayed in your last message, redirect it. Use it to change your surroundings, which will change your perspective, changing your perception and become your reality.

my life has been permantely and cruelly altered strapped down and intravenously shot up with a drug that causes permanent brain damage my looks robbed of me poisoned physically and mentally had everyone pitted against me and manipulated with lies now he has me at my limit I won't push him into hell he will go with me that's my promise he will then he will meet my soul not the body broken.

So then you are on a path of self destruction and your mind is set. Im sorry to hear that. I truly am. After what you have endured it is the saddest outcome.

he was put in my path for love he has chosen a knife in my back he hates women because he thinks he should have been one... that's not my fault what is my fault is accepting less than my heart deserves he ripped of emotionally and financially made sure my brain couldn't function by poisoning an already fragile mind my mind will never be right now I am supposed to face all the predators of the world without a functioning brain alone and penniless after his soul theft really? sounds like you side with cold calculated plotters and like him wish I would just go away.

That's an unfair assessment on your part. I have done nothing but show compassion for you and try to maybe provide some insight from someone on the outside with a clear mind, that might help you to find some self empowerment to change your circumstance. Not spiral down a path of rage, vengence and self destruction, which would ultimately end up with him getting exactly what he wants.    
   
I'm sorry that you felt that somehow I was agreeing with what he did to you. I thought I made it clear on more than one occasuon that I did not. Im also sorry that you believe that me continuing to have a conversation with you means that I want you to go away. But I'm most sorry that you are so consumed with venom that you would mistake my concern for an attempt to kick you when you are down.

There’s too many lines in here for me to pick my fave.
So relatable.

This rocks.

That is quite the compliment! Thank you! You are very kind.

My pleasure.
Glad you’re here.

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