seven weeks

its been three weeks
im doing well
my arms are starting to heal up
my leg is scabbing aswell

four weeks in
i begin to think
a whole month with no cuts
am i away from the brink?

six weeks in
that one little thing
reminds me of pain
i feel that familiar sting

seven weeks in
i cant control it
my hands are shaking
im over this shit!

eigth week monday
im of to school
bandaged up and bleeding heavy
im a stupid fool

evrytime i get back up
i miss the feeling
that sharp slice on my wrist
no chance of healing

i was going well
no cuts for seven weeks
but i cant shake the habit
i feel so fucking weak!!