the "dream world" and "reality"

           
           
           
    dreams sometimes poke at my psyche-as if to say," hey-your'e obviously dreaming...." while in the dream it's like the mind sees it real despite the fact that there'd be no way....          
           
   i've questioned and I've wondered if there's an outside influence remote controlling more or less what's at play; it's like something wants my attention or to torment me there because my soul's something that it hates....          
           
  if at all true- it's got to be from this reality- right? but regardless of the case- my question is why?         "reality" hasn't really favored my side- I've mostly always felt inclined to sit on the "sidelines"; these days especially feel like many ways to suck you into "social acceptess" and "bright lights"          
           
   "real life" doesn't even feel "real"-but never really has; human communication at times sound like barking, cawling and every other form of outcry....        
       
  "dreams...." "reality...." at one point or another both overwhelm me.... my soul's like-just relieve me of them both, please....