scales of life

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I'm tired of giving standard answers
to impertinent questions  
then watching their faces
as they struggle to hide how they're assessing my worth
based on their one dimensional judgment  
determining themselves to be better
...at whatever
the next time I'm asked
how much do you weigh
I'm simply going to say
I bear the weight of 20,367 days
a thousand & 1 stupid queries
countless empty smiles
when eyes show a different story
I bear the burden of so many mistakes  
...the sheer volume is hard to fathom
& the pressure of stresses
caused by judging me harshly
{not always externally}
I shudder under the bulk pinning me down
of a million cruel remarks
& abuses I'd rather you not try to imagine  
it's my load to carry
& I do
I'll ask...if I need help...
...though probably not from you
never from someone who sets a bar so high
it's humanly impossible  
America said it perfectly in her Barbie monolog
there is no description for this  
it just...is
mere pounds don't amount to shit
so trust me...
that dial on the scale...  
is nothing in comparison