Heart Song

   
my heart's sorrow sung honestly  
my broken mind bore witness  
it's a different face, same manipulation game  
   
I'm sure you have the cure to rescue another lost soul and control her  
you are sure in my eyes, to derail her  
keep her from her goals  
she will never see her daughter on your chosen path  
not with you sidling up like a sidewinder and with you in the way  
but what does it matter you prey on the weak  
   
a dollar or two should do if you're hungry and homeless  
with dollar signs in her eyes  
and a false sense of security  
she's everyone's girl  and I can't wait to hear you're utterly broken  
   
you stole my life and sidetracked me  
you cheated every chance you got  
starving me for affection and giving it to everyone else  
and then gaslighting me  
   
I am honest in the eyes  
my heart betrays me  
and even God hates me    
for putting anyone above him on my altar of pain  
   
my heart hurts and you blame me  
your kids blame me for your lack of affection  
because it's easy to inflict hurt onto me  
and watch me burn
   
you can't melt ice colder than scauld    
hell knows and utters it has a special place for me  
I am loved, the heavens may be paved with gold    
but it is too high an emotional price to pay for entry