Lay Your Head Down, Baby

I could sooner smell the coco butter kiss
Than taste the iron rotting my teeth.

Just as you smile at my frown in the aching shade
It makes me want to swim with the sharks.

Life moves slowly as I watch from six feet away
Under the cold of the burning sun.

My head hurts more than it did this morning
But I couldn't tell you why, I doubt I could talk.

I think I could fly off that rock ledge top
Land in the long embrace of you from the sand castle.

Even if the kitchen isn't the highest point I smile
Get up for a single split moment, I can't breathe.

The music is loud in my head as my whole world is turned
Curve and crash to the cold ground and I can't help laughing.

This is nothing new for me I suppose
Crying out because I thought it was simple.

Fear is a friend that I have close ties with
Stumbling across the floor to a shaking bedside.

And when I turn I see a man who thought I was a woman
He never cared to listen when I spoke of anything.

I begged you not to go
I pleaded for you not to go.

Though I couldn't help but watch the man as you retreated
It was comforting to know that you could protect me.

He watches me fall against the sheets that feel so dirty now
My head is stoned with a cruel love story and he's the star.

It wasn't that I wanted to stay near him
But I couldn't leave as I heard his voice on the telephone.

I wanted to be back in the islands with you
You're million miles away even if you're right there.

When you went to sleep against that white sand
I wanted to say something but I didn't.

I should've
But it's too late now
As I upchuck the rest of my bones
Whispering "I'm sorry".