Deep Within Me

If you could look deep within me  
You'd only see deep wounds and scars  
Cuts and abrasions, some new, some old  
Each one has a story to be told  
You'd be able to tell where each time one started to heal  
A fresh one formed, or a previous one sliced open    
Each time the process starting over    
Never getting closure    
   
If you could look deep within me    
You'd see a light once so bright, now dimmed and dark  
You'd be able to tell where the light once burning, was blown out  
You'd know at one time I was full of happiness  
But each battle I went through took it away bit by bit  
Now there's only shattered pieces    
   
If you could look deep within me    
You'd see someone who was once full of hope and positivity    
Now left with a broken spirit and most of the time feeling hopeless  
You'd see a soul that once was alive, now dead and silent    
   
If you could look deep within me  
You'd see a girl who was once a fighter    
Has slowly started to accept her defeat  
You would see each time she tried to stand  
She was trampled, and knocked back down  
You would see a girl who has realised she can't win  
She has not much of a  fight left, she now only exist    
   
If you could look deep within me  
You'd find a girl who once loved life  
Who was full of hope and positivity  
Now has no will, no strength, no ability  
She now sits and stares at death in it's face  
Contemplating her fate    
   
If you could look deep within me    
You'd know I feel hurt, I feel broken, I feel alone  
I feel empty, worthless, no reason to go on    
   
But you only see me on the outside    
Oblivious to all that is hidden    
You see the smiles, you hear the laughs  
You get the sarcasm, and the humor  
   
But it's only a picture painted to look perfect  
A cover for each bruise and wound  
Hiding all the pain and the mental struggle
A picture covering the truth    
   
From the outside you think my lifes picture is worth a million  
   
But if you could see deep within me  
You'd realise what is shown on the outside, isn't the same as inside  
And looks can be so decieving  
Underneath it's been scarred, damaged,  bruised, broken & sewn  
It really isn't worth a penny